Still, I wonder what a statue of my life would be like? I don’t want to be in any war, but are there things that I am willing to give myself wholeheartedly to? Or do I just want to live to a ripe old age and go out with a sigh?
When I was younger I used to fear that I would come to the end of my life, and right in the moment before I died, right after I saw all my life in review, my last thought would be, “none of it made any difference.” I want my horse to be reared up.
One of the great scenes in The Once and Future King by T.H. White (the Broadway musical and movie Camelot was based on this book) has Arthur facing all the perils of a kingdom bent on destroying itself. He holds up his sword Excalibur and says:
By God! I shall be a king! This is the time of King Arthur, when we shall reach for the stars! This is the time of King Arthur, when violence is NOT strength, and compassion is NOT weakness! WE ARE CIVILIZED! Resolved! We shall live through this together, Excalibur! They, you, and I! And may God have mercy on us all!
As I walk through this community, I look for that kind of passion. And pray that it is in me.
One other thought…..if you see a horse whose coloring is red and all four feet are off the ground, you’re probably at an old gas station.